Recently Logan got back from a trip into the village where he started building our future home! I am really excited about all the Lord has in store for us over these next few years.....well the rest of our lives I guess!
As I was thinking about our future home something that I have struggled with for a long time came very apparent to me. It was really an issue for me in the states more than it is here. I have a problem with "house/home envy." Obviously that isn't a real thing but I have it!
When we were back in the US this past year talking to people about their new houses and their new apartments and their new furniture and their new paint job in the kitchen, sometimes I wanted to cry!
I would dream about having plush carpet in our future living room, painting the kitchen aqua blue, a big comfy couch the whole family could pile on in front of our flat screen TV, a big claw foot bathtub, and lots of soft fluffy pillows on our bed. Then my dreams would come crashing down and I would begin to have nightmares about what my house could possibly be like. Hard wood floors that are uneven, dark dingy wooden walls in the kitchen, no couch-no TV, no bathtub, and pillows but probably not soft and probably not many!
However in all actuality neither the dream nor the nightmare are anywhere near what our home will be like.
No I won't have my plush carpet, but I will have hard wood floors that my amazing husband carefully laid by hand.
My kitchen probably won't be aqua blue (although I could do that if I REALLY wanted to but I will probably let that be a dream!) but it will have windows that look out onto a beautiful airstrip where I will be reminded each day of God's amazing creation.
I probably won't have a big comfy couch like the one in my dream (or like the one at my parents house!) but I will have a couch and my boys can climb up on my lap and we can chat about what they learned in school and what adventures they went on in the jungle and even watch a movie on our computer (or maybe a TV, who knows).
We won't have a claw foot bathtub or a bathtub at all (we could but are choosing not to because Logan wants to build a stone shower!) but I am lucky to have a bathroom at all! :-)
Of course we will have pillows on our bed! How silly am I to even think we would have to go without pillows! No they may not be exactly what I would choose if we lived in America but they will be pillows and they will be soft. I probably just won't have as many as in my dreams!
So my actual house won't really resemble my dream house in many ways at all, but in SO MANY ways it will be much better! I am so blessed to have the opportunity to live on the other side of the world and tell people about my great God and Savior Jesus Christ. Honestly who cares what my house looks like. It is all worth just to able to tell one person about Him who has never heard before!
Please pray for Logan as he continues to build our home. Please pray for me to daily be content with the house that I will have.